The wonderful Leticia was kind enough to bestow a July Perfect Post upon me for “Looking For Balance.” At first I wasn’t sure if I was even going to mention it, even though I was very honored – mainly because the real Perfect Post of the month was Punk Rock Mommy’s last post before she passed away from cancer. What a strong amazing woman. But the truth is, the fact that Leticia clued in that post, the one that continues to swirl around in my life right now, is so appropriate and so in tune with me, I can’t pass up talking about it again. Not to mention, my mom taught me to always say please and thank you.
So, thank you Leticia. Very much.
Because I continue to struggle to find balance.
I took this week off to cover a gap in care for Declan before school starts. Bryan is off rafting in some very deep water very far away in Western Colorado, so I won’t hear from him until he gets back in cell range late tomorrow night. Declan and I had all these activities planned for the week. Typical me – shoving all this STUFF into ALL AVAILABLE time, right?
I seriously have a problem with that, yo.
But then we both got sick. I was so sick yesterday that I couldn’t move. Like tornado alarms went off and I called my friend Sarah to see if I actually had to do anything. THAT’S how sick I was.
And while being sick is never fun, especially THAT sick… for two days, Declan and I have just HUNG. For long stretches yesterday, I just laid there on the bed and watched him while he drew picture after picture. Drew and drew and drew and drew. While I watched and watched and watched. And thought and thought and thought.
Today is already starting to pick up the pace. He is starting to bounce off the walls again. I am checking email.
But I remembered what it was like to just BE.
So, thank you to my cold as well.