I feel like I am turning into such a complainer. But seriously – how much more can one family handle? There is such pressure on us from to many sides, I feel like if I take one step in any direction, the house of cards will crumble.
I know so many others feel this way too.
I know so many others have it way worse than me.
It doesn’t help that my evil ear continues to plague me.
Remember how I had my eardrum reconstructed in September? Like, the whole thing? And how he said it would be 6-8 weeks of recovery?
He wasn’t kidding.
During that whole time, I couldn’t bend over because of the pressure to my head. Guess what happens to your back when you don’t bend over?
It really, really, really, hates on you.
And you go to urgent care. And you think about how jacked up your insurance is going to be in the new year. And you think about the pressure your husband is under at work. And wonder why your child is acting out in new ways, although you actually do know what he is doing – cause he feels all the strain too – right? And you still can’t walk, or sit, or stand, but you have to work, because there is so much to do, not to mention all the laundry. And oh yeah, let’s not forget the really selfish people in your life who do crazy ass shit that you just can’t believe, but they’ll never change so what’s the point? And then you remind yourself yet again, about all the people who struggle so much harder than you do, every day, but OMG your back still feels like it was crushed by a backhoe, and you wonder if you are ever going to be healthy again, ever, and mainly you are just sick of complaining, so STOP.
It’s going to be OK.