Do you have a person in your life, who, no matter how hard you try – always manages to push your buttons? The person who makes no sense, who makes you feel like you are wading through caramel when you are talking to them? Actually, scratch that – because wading through caramel would be a good thing, like – really. yummy. I am talking about a person who seems to hear the exact opposite of what you say, or possibly purposely doesn’t listen? And then makes decisions that affect people, but anything you do about it somehow gets twisted – to where you feel like you have been on trial yet never had your day on the stand. You have been convicted, sent to jail, and are clanging that tin cup against the bars… all the while innocent of whatever crime you were accused of.
I know I am not making any sense.
Except to those of you who have this same person in your life.
I got sucked back into the ooze today.
And then I called my husband. Called, instead of walked down the hall – because he no longer works with me, and that alone probably added to the malaise of my mood today… just hearing his voice filled my lungs with fresh air.
I told him, “I need you to talk me down.”
And he did.
He reminded me that I could not win with this person. That I had tried my best. That my family loves me and that is what matters most.
I hung up the phone and exhaled.
I was home.